Thursday, March 25, 2010

It's been awhile, so I wrote on all five....sorta

So it’s been awhile since I took part in Mama Kat’s Writers Workshop, hey I just had a baby 5 weeks ago. I have an excuse! But I’ve really wanted to get back into it, and just haven’t had the time. It’s been a little hairy around here with a 22 month old and a newborn. So I decided Tuesday, this will be the week where I will try to get back into it, and to make up for it I think I'll write on all five. Let’s take a look at the prompts…

Number one…the other day I ventured to ask my husband what my weakness is:

Me to wonderful husband: “What’s my weakness?”

Wonderful husband responds: “What do you mean? What do you think your weakness is?”
Me: “PLEASE stop answering my questions with QUESTIONS!”

WH: “You’re quick to anger”

And you can guess where that conversation went….so scratch number one.

Number two…I am in desperate need for positive affirmations these days. I am in serious doubt of my ability to be a good mother and wife. Having 2 kids under the age of 2 is so much more than I am able to handle right now. I plan on reading other Writers Workshops in search of some positive affirmations. Because I am fresh out.

Number three… What could I be MADE into? Ugh, the possibilities are endless…really…because I would love to be anything other than what I am right now. I just can’t think of one thing.

Number four…this one makes me want to cry. I gave up a lot when we got married, I sold my house and my business. Then we had our first child a month later, who I’ve been home(locked up) with ever since. I feel like I did all the compromising(giving up) and my wonderful husband was able to keep and run our(his) business while I raise the kids. I love my husband and kids, I really do.

Number five…and finally the “No one ever asked me” prompt.

No one ever asked me the right question.

Well it’s not true; my husband asks me all the time “What do you want? How can I help? What can we do to make this better? What do you need? What can I get you?”

And me, being the selfish, confused, tired, and down right stubborn woman(psycho) cannot answer a single one of those questions, because I don’t know, and I wish I did.

7 comments:

♥ Kathy said...

Congratulations on the new baby! I know how you feel...it does get better. Just wait, you have the teen years to look forward to LOL Thanks for visiting me :)

Marcy said...

How about this affirmation: If you're going through hell, keep on going! (Winston Churchill said it, and Rodney Atkins sings about it) Sounds to me like you have a lot on your plate, and maybe like your energies are going places you didn't plan. But keep on trucking, girl! Keep raising those beautiful babies, keep your own dreams alive and find ways to follow them. Sounds like your hubby is there to support you, so you've got what you need.

Great job in participating with all the prompts. They were some good ones this week!

Ms. Wanda said...

Hi, stopping by from Mama Kat's. Whew, man you covered them all, I couldn't even think that much:) First of all thank you for sharing your thoughts, I know how you feel. I am lost sometimes wondering when did I get married and have all these kids (love them all) I just got lost somewhere and I am determined to get me back:) Like Kathy said it does get better!!!

Miss. Candy said...

I had two under two at one time, they are now 5th and 6th graders! It is hard, but hang in there!!

I didn't get to chase my dreams or go after what I wanted until my youngest (who is now 6) started school full-time. In the last year I just got to start chasing after dreams. Don't give up, don't get discouraged, you are done everything right! Congrats on the neew baby!!!!

Allison said...

It will get easier I promise!!! I had Cody when Jacob was 22 months old. Fastforward 20 months and I had Mason. Mason is now 9 months and we are all still alive and well.
And like I tell my husband "If I have to tell you how to help me, I might as well do it myself." So now he just does the dishes when the sink is overflowing and if the baby is crying instead of handing him to me, he will first try to get Mason to stop crying.
I am a new follower from Mama kat's.
~Allison
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The High Family said...

I am finally following this blog. I keep forgetting to read it because I don't have it on my google reader.

I loved this post. Your honesty is refreshing and encourages me to start my own "private" blog to write down how I truly feel about my roles with being a wife and mommy.

You want to know the truth? I feel the same way! ;)

The Schaeffer Family said...

I totally get this post - - especially the sacrifices/compromises/wanting to cry. Thanks for the link to this blog. It's nice to know I'm not alone. :)